There’s a lot to catch up on since my last post - so i’ll jot down some notes and flush them out later:
* miscarriage memorial say weekend 5/25.
* started acupuncture and got a full heath blood panel and checkup -everything looks great
* started Chinese herbs, Vit D, Vit B complex, prenatal, also stopped eating spicy foods
* casually “tried from July - Aug
* surprisingly got pregnant in sept - but ended in a 3rd miscarriage - a strange chemical
* saw some napro docs right after this
* friend at work took me to her OBGYN
* contacted a psychic - she told me she would see me getting pregnant soon and it ended in a baby, probably a girl
* had a full RMP and found I have facto v lieden - seeming a hematologist now
* OB started me on progesterone before BFP
November 26, 2018
May 23, 2018
Scared
We are in limbo right now:
5/14 - 5/18 I had migraines all week and a few days of stomach/bathroom problems. I went home early on friday feeling like crap and getting a little clamy
5/19 I woke up feeling "off", that something was wrong. when i went to the bathroom i had a few streaks of blood in my CM. they were thin and red - almost like a vein in an eyeball.
I got into a midwife clinic to get an US and I left with a diagnosis of a miscarriage. I was supposed to be about 9 weeks along and I was only measuring 6+3 weeks - they also saw a little bleeding inside and no heartbeat
5/19-5/21: On the phone a number of times per day with my midwife deciding what the next steps would be. I didn't want to do anything harsh, but I didn't want it to go on for as long as it did last time PLUS I had out of town company over at the end of the week.
On sunday we decided that I take a few doses of an herbal liquid that's supposed to start labor - nothing happened. So, I got an appointment at an OB to discuss my options.
5/21: I go into this appointment with dred and depression. I felt lack of feeling with the exception of fear and feeling not in control. Also, I felt like anything we were going to do was some kind of abortion - it all felt wrong.
Being we discussed any options the midwife wanted to take a look for herself and did another exam. She saw no heartbeat or movement but also said she saw growth as my gestational sac was now at 6+6. She said it's extremely possible that I was just a lot earlier than planned and if that's correct, it would be very early to see a heartbeat.
So - we left with a new plan: take a blood draw of my hgc and progesterone that day and come back in 3 days to test again. Also, the following week we are doing another scan - in hopes of finding a heartbeat.
Right now I'm feeling much calmer and very hopeful. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I have an amazing group of women around me on this journey.
Note: I have been on 200mg of a light, vaginal progesterone pill since I got my first BFP. With this 1st round of testing we saw that my HCG is great, over 10K, but my progesterone is low 6.1. So, as soon as CVS fills my Rx will be on a stronger progesterone pill 2x/day.
5/14 - 5/18 I had migraines all week and a few days of stomach/bathroom problems. I went home early on friday feeling like crap and getting a little clamy
5/19 I woke up feeling "off", that something was wrong. when i went to the bathroom i had a few streaks of blood in my CM. they were thin and red - almost like a vein in an eyeball.
I got into a midwife clinic to get an US and I left with a diagnosis of a miscarriage. I was supposed to be about 9 weeks along and I was only measuring 6+3 weeks - they also saw a little bleeding inside and no heartbeat
5/19-5/21: On the phone a number of times per day with my midwife deciding what the next steps would be. I didn't want to do anything harsh, but I didn't want it to go on for as long as it did last time PLUS I had out of town company over at the end of the week.
On sunday we decided that I take a few doses of an herbal liquid that's supposed to start labor - nothing happened. So, I got an appointment at an OB to discuss my options.
5/21: I go into this appointment with dred and depression. I felt lack of feeling with the exception of fear and feeling not in control. Also, I felt like anything we were going to do was some kind of abortion - it all felt wrong.
Being we discussed any options the midwife wanted to take a look for herself and did another exam. She saw no heartbeat or movement but also said she saw growth as my gestational sac was now at 6+6. She said it's extremely possible that I was just a lot earlier than planned and if that's correct, it would be very early to see a heartbeat.
So - we left with a new plan: take a blood draw of my hgc and progesterone that day and come back in 3 days to test again. Also, the following week we are doing another scan - in hopes of finding a heartbeat.
Right now I'm feeling much calmer and very hopeful. I see the light at the end of the tunnel and I have an amazing group of women around me on this journey.
Note: I have been on 200mg of a light, vaginal progesterone pill since I got my first BFP. With this 1st round of testing we saw that my HCG is great, over 10K, but my progesterone is low 6.1. So, as soon as CVS fills my Rx will be on a stronger progesterone pill 2x/day.
January 17, 2018
Miscarriage
So, I think i'm having a miscarriage today.
I got my positive pregnancy tests from about 1/9 - 1/12, but I started bleeding on about 1/4.
At first I was super excited b/c I thought early blood meant implantation blood, but I had only ovulated on about 1/1 so it was way too early for that..non then less I was excited. The bleeding got worse later in the day so I ended up texting one of the midwives I had just interviewed the week before. She said as long as i'm not filling pad, everything was ok and that I should just go on "pelvic rest". I kept her in the loop that the bleeding hadn't stopped so she suggested going on a progesterone serum and quickly up-ed my dosage. that didn't help. so, she scheduled a 6 week ultrasound to see how things were going.
I told her with all the help she was giving me I should probably pay my deposit and make it official, but based on what I was telling her she wouldn't even take my money until we knew it was for sure :(
Now this entire time the bleeding never came out - i only saw it when i wiped and other then 2 instances of minor spotting, it always came out in my CM. The colors ranged from pink, red, and brown and from a lot to a little.
I had started off by using the cheap internet strips to test and they were getting darker from the 9th - 11th and then on the 12th started to get lighter. so on that day I bought one of the fancy ones at the store and that clearly showed up positive. But going back to the internet strips they kept getting ligher almost to the point of being negative....
I told her things aren't getting better so she suggested we finally do some blood work so we know where things are going, so we did that yesterday and I don't even have the results back yet.
Well, today on exactly week 4 (1/17), i think it's over. i woke up this morning and consistant bleeding started to stream out and it was "period red" and with small clots coming out. :( also, yesterday afternoon at work I passed a large mass of something.
The fat lady hasn't sung yet, but she's backstage warming up.
I thought everything was going to line up just right too:
* the last time i got pregnant Sarah just gave birth - and she just gave birth this month too
* the last time i was pregnant was the last time I visited melissa - and we just booked a trip to see her this spring!
* sean's birthday and #2's birthday could have been in the same week
I got my positive pregnancy tests from about 1/9 - 1/12, but I started bleeding on about 1/4.
At first I was super excited b/c I thought early blood meant implantation blood, but I had only ovulated on about 1/1 so it was way too early for that..non then less I was excited. The bleeding got worse later in the day so I ended up texting one of the midwives I had just interviewed the week before. She said as long as i'm not filling pad, everything was ok and that I should just go on "pelvic rest". I kept her in the loop that the bleeding hadn't stopped so she suggested going on a progesterone serum and quickly up-ed my dosage. that didn't help. so, she scheduled a 6 week ultrasound to see how things were going.
I told her with all the help she was giving me I should probably pay my deposit and make it official, but based on what I was telling her she wouldn't even take my money until we knew it was for sure :(
Now this entire time the bleeding never came out - i only saw it when i wiped and other then 2 instances of minor spotting, it always came out in my CM. The colors ranged from pink, red, and brown and from a lot to a little.
I had started off by using the cheap internet strips to test and they were getting darker from the 9th - 11th and then on the 12th started to get lighter. so on that day I bought one of the fancy ones at the store and that clearly showed up positive. But going back to the internet strips they kept getting ligher almost to the point of being negative....
I told her things aren't getting better so she suggested we finally do some blood work so we know where things are going, so we did that yesterday and I don't even have the results back yet.
Well, today on exactly week 4 (1/17), i think it's over. i woke up this morning and consistant bleeding started to stream out and it was "period red" and with small clots coming out. :( also, yesterday afternoon at work I passed a large mass of something.
The fat lady hasn't sung yet, but she's backstage warming up.
I thought everything was going to line up just right too:
* the last time i got pregnant Sarah just gave birth - and she just gave birth this month too
* the last time i was pregnant was the last time I visited melissa - and we just booked a trip to see her this spring!
* sean's birthday and #2's birthday could have been in the same week
April 2, 2014
First Signs of Movement
Sean is definitely mobile, but not crawling yet. I want this blog to sort of be a timestamp to see how long between now and when he starts crawling.
- He rolls around a lot,
- He scoots backwards on his tummy pretty good
- In the last two days he has
- sat up on his own from a laying down position
- was able to get up on his knees and hands a the same time - though he still hangs his head low
March 31, 2014
Sleep?
Sean was a pretty good sleeper during his 3rd month...about 7-8 solid hours. he's been sleeping in a miracle blanket swaddle since we was about 3 months. he hit a normal 4 month sleep regression, but unfortunately at nearly 6 months old hasn't gone back. he's up 2-3 times a night and still needs a bottle to fall asleep. We tried transitioning out of the swaddle and that has gone horrible. he wakes up every couple hours again. Even if he isn't waking us up that often, i can tell he's not sleeping well b/c he is more tired during the day. We have been swaddling again the past few nights and while feeding him tonight, I looked into how we can transition him from the swaddle. Before today, the way that seem to be thought was the best was to swaddle him with one arm out. Well, the first night we did that he used that one arm to paddle himself around 90 degrees. then we though let's just try no swaddle. well, he fell a sleep faster but did one of these three things:
- roll on his stomach, turn 90 degrees, and dangle his legs through the crib
- roll on his stomach and practice his crying push ups
- do the backwards worm from one end of the crib to another
March 30, 2014
The Eczema Saga
Sean probably has had his eczema for about 3 months now. We have since be able to control it, but it isn't going away. I have learned as much as I think I can about the issue and got as much advice as I can handle (sample below), but I'm really starting to think it's due to a milk protein allergy. That would explain his eczema and the constant runny/stuffy nose he seems to have had since birth and had never really gone away. So, just yesterday, we switched him to a, more expensive, soy based formula. I'm of course hoping that it works, however, I have read that up to 50% of kids with the milk protein allergy, also have the a soy allergy. This condition is hereditary..and all of dan's nieces have the issue and eventually had to switch to the Elecare formula.
Update:
Um...after some research, I'm really confused. I'm not sure what I'm feeding him :( I guess it's not soy based... and I'm confused if its non soy and non dairy..or if it's just a broken down milk protein. It shouldn't be this difficult to figure out.
Update:
Um...after some research, I'm really confused. I'm not sure what I'm feeding him :( I guess it's not soy based... and I'm confused if its non soy and non dairy..or if it's just a broken down milk protein. It shouldn't be this difficult to figure out.
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