Miscarriage

So, I think i'm having a miscarriage today.
I got my positive pregnancy tests from about 1/9 - 1/12, but I started bleeding on about 1/4.
At first I was super excited b/c I thought early blood meant implantation blood, but I had only ovulated on about 1/1 so it was way too early for that..non then less I was excited. The bleeding got worse later in the day so I ended up texting one of the midwives I had just interviewed the week before. She said as long as i'm not filling pad, everything was ok and that I should just go on "pelvic rest". I kept her in the loop that the bleeding hadn't stopped so she suggested going on a progesterone serum and quickly up-ed my dosage. that didn't help. so, she scheduled a 6 week ultrasound to see how things were going.

I told her with all the help she was giving me I should probably pay my deposit and make it official, but based on what I was telling her she wouldn't even take my money until we knew it was for sure :(

Now this entire time the bleeding never came out - i only saw it when i wiped and other then 2 instances of minor spotting, it always came out in my CM. The colors ranged from pink, red, and brown and from a lot to a little.

I had started off by using the cheap internet strips to test and they were getting darker from the 9th - 11th and then on the 12th started to get lighter. so on that day I bought one of the fancy ones at the store and that clearly showed up positive. But going back to the internet strips they kept getting ligher almost to the point of being negative....

I told her things aren't getting better so she suggested we finally do some blood work so we know where things are going, so we did that yesterday and I don't even have the results back yet.

Well, today on exactly week 4 (1/17), i think it's over. i woke up this morning and consistant bleeding started to stream out and it was "period red" and with small clots coming out. :( also, yesterday afternoon at work I passed a large mass of something.

The fat lady hasn't sung yet, but she's backstage warming up.

I thought everything was going to line up just right too:
* the last time i got pregnant Sarah just gave birth - and she just gave birth this month too
* the last time i was pregnant was the last time I visited melissa - and we just booked a trip to see her this spring!
* sean's birthday and #2's birthday could have been in the same week