September 12, 2013
Progress?
Another night of what I think are real contractions. They lasted about an 1.5 hours and it was constant...however, the pain gradually increased. I was up when they started and decided to stay up (late) until they went away. I have found it's too hard to manage the pain when i'm trying to sleep...also it would be good for me to practice ways to work through them.
September 10, 2013
Progress?
I had another night of of really painful "cramps" that kept me up all night. The pain is strong and starts in the middle of my lower back and goes all the way around to the front. definitely not consistent, but did go on for many hours. When I was actually up, the pain was focused more just in the front and felt more like bad period cramps. The pain and cramps eventually faded maybe around 10:30am while at work.
I told my midwife at our appointment today and she's guessing i'm starting effacement. However, I also learned that she really doesn't do internal exams unless requested or really needed. So, I probably wont know my progression. Which is probably a good idea...I can see myself obsessing with the numbers. I'm already slightly obsessing over these contractions.
He dropped a lot already..I think he did it all in a day (sunday). When LaNette did her exam, his head was day down below my bikini line (good think I shaved :))! I even felt his head bone..crazy hard. If she didn't tell me, I would have though it was my pelvic bone.
I told my midwife at our appointment today and she's guessing i'm starting effacement. However, I also learned that she really doesn't do internal exams unless requested or really needed. So, I probably wont know my progression. Which is probably a good idea...I can see myself obsessing with the numbers. I'm already slightly obsessing over these contractions.
He dropped a lot already..I think he did it all in a day (sunday). When LaNette did her exam, his head was day down below my bikini line (good think I shaved :))! I even felt his head bone..crazy hard. If she didn't tell me, I would have though it was my pelvic bone.
September 9, 2013
Swelling
swelling is high today! i can actually feel myself growing. even my ring is tight to put around my pinkie.
September 6, 2013
36 weeks
I've been so stressed out this week....and it's been with my midwife - which is very unhealthy. I don't want to detail it too much b/c it will stir up anger. But the birthing center opened this past sunday and I got to take a tour and finally have my appointment. The center definitely looks nice, but it's missing a home-y feel. But that might come overtime. Well, what started this whole anger thing is that I was given the contract to the birthing center and it's nothing like what we were told and now it's looking unaffordable and i feel upset b/c she keeps changing her story - lost of trust.
We are going to see her again on sunday for our birthing class, I hope. We are getting their a little early to talk to her. I'm actually having Dan talk to her b/c i'm too worried about getting really upset with her.
Feeling left out...
The Stach's used to hold great family reunion parties every year, but they haven't had one since maybe the year before we got married. I have been looking forward to going to another one, but figured they were over. Well, I guess vicki decided to hold one this year..and it happens to be next weekend! At the time, i will be about 37.5 weeks, so I will be too far along to travel out of state...so we are missing the event :( Family form all over the country are flying into MI..and we are missing it.
Getting upset again, time to stop.
We are going to see her again on sunday for our birthing class, I hope. We are getting their a little early to talk to her. I'm actually having Dan talk to her b/c i'm too worried about getting really upset with her.
Feeling left out...
The Stach's used to hold great family reunion parties every year, but they haven't had one since maybe the year before we got married. I have been looking forward to going to another one, but figured they were over. Well, I guess vicki decided to hold one this year..and it happens to be next weekend! At the time, i will be about 37.5 weeks, so I will be too far along to travel out of state...so we are missing the event :( Family form all over the country are flying into MI..and we are missing it.
Getting upset again, time to stop.
September 5, 2013
Drama
So, we received our maternity photos back this week. Maybe two weeks ago we saw a sneak peek of one photo on facebook and I really liked it. It was a nice shot and looked very sweet. I had high hopes for the rest of them.Well, when we finally saw them neither dan nor I really liked them. They weren't bad, they were just nothing to get excited over. Oh well...it happens.
Anyways, in the email, our photographer asked us to let her know what we thought of the photos. I debated telling her the truth or not and dan suggested that I do. So, I basically told her that the photos turned out alright but I wasn't excited about them. However, I would still like to buy the digital copies and keep our booking for her to do the newborn session. Well, that didn't turn out so well. She replied back that she doesn't like it when people don't like her work and she doesn't want to do our newborn session anymore and that she will just bill us for the session fee and send us a single digital copy of the sneak peek photo.
Yikes!
I replied back with an apology but that I understood and that I would still like to buy ALL of the photos...I haven't heard back yet. So, now i'm on a scramble to find an affordable photographer on short notice. It definitely would be ok if we didn't get these photos professionally done, but it would be nice :)
Update: Everything seemed to have turned out alright. She emailed me back and seemed ok with everything. She even reiterated that this was her favorite maternity shoot so far. We are all square now...we are paid up and already have the digital copies. I've even found a few affordable options for newborn photos :) things are coming together.
Anyways, in the email, our photographer asked us to let her know what we thought of the photos. I debated telling her the truth or not and dan suggested that I do. So, I basically told her that the photos turned out alright but I wasn't excited about them. However, I would still like to buy the digital copies and keep our booking for her to do the newborn session. Well, that didn't turn out so well. She replied back that she doesn't like it when people don't like her work and she doesn't want to do our newborn session anymore and that she will just bill us for the session fee and send us a single digital copy of the sneak peek photo.
Yikes!
I replied back with an apology but that I understood and that I would still like to buy ALL of the photos...I haven't heard back yet. So, now i'm on a scramble to find an affordable photographer on short notice. It definitely would be ok if we didn't get these photos professionally done, but it would be nice :)
Update: Everything seemed to have turned out alright. She emailed me back and seemed ok with everything. She even reiterated that this was her favorite maternity shoot so far. We are all square now...we are paid up and already have the digital copies. I've even found a few affordable options for newborn photos :) things are coming together.
August 31, 2013
Week 35
work shower
Let's start out with the crabby and end with the good.
I have been really oily lately, it's pretty gross. I normally only shower every other day and that seems to be enough. However, when I do that now, by the time of the second day I feel so gross! Most of the oil seems to be coming from my face. This seems to have been a problem starting maybe just a few weeks ago.
WTH: There has been a strange pattern going lately with "my team". so, on last Sunday we had the no-notification cancellation on the birth class. Then I was supposed to have my actual prenatal appointment with LaNette this past tuesday. I left work early to go the appointment but right before I left I decided to just play on facebook for min (which I normally wouldn't do) and happen to notice that LaNette posted that she was on here way to a birth about an hour before. I decided to text her...well, of course our appointment was cancelled and she forgot to tell me. I didn't receive this "noticed" until I was only about 5 min from her house. I guess at least I found out before I rang the bell! Well, the next day we reschedule the appointment for this friday (yesterday) for 8:00am. I set my alarm early so I can get there ontime. when I wokeup I had a text waiting for me that she was at another birth and we need to reschedule again. Well, we are supposed to meet tomorrow afternoon - so we'll see if that happens.
Along the same lines, we had our first meeting with our doula on thursday. We headed out to get to our appointment and after we were on the road for maybe 5-10 min, we get a text that she would like to push the meeting back by 30min. Ok fine, we turned around...took Mr T for a walk and headed out again. We get to her office and she isn't there...she calls me just after 7 and goes "i'm here" and I reply back with "i'm here too". Well, we were waiting at her office and she was waiting at our house. Eventually she made it to her office and we started the appointment almost an hour after our original appointment.
And that segway into the good part of the week
The meeting with our doula went really well. I really didn't know what to expect so I was pretty surprised (and tired!!) that the meeting lasted about 3 hours - so until 11:30pm. So, first good thing. We still really like her - we all got a long well and were kind of chatty so that's a good sign. The second thing, the appointment ended up being a crash bradley course in the three stages of labor. Most of it I've sort of read before, but it's always good to hear it again.
Final good thing this week - I had a surprise baby shower at work from my team :) It was only an hour long, so it went pretty fast but it was cute. They decorated at meeting room and even had a few games! I was super surprised too that they had a gift for us - the swing! So, generous. The funny thing is that we ended up buying the swing maybe a week ago or so, but I didn't say anything. So, tomorrow we are going to return the one I bought (since it's still in the box).
Oh, and this weekend we are trying to finish up the baby stuff- and are getting pretty darn close. the baby's room is done and his clothes are in the dresser. Also, as I type Dan is installing the car seat and putting the swing together :) )
Let's start out with the crabby and end with the good.
I have been really oily lately, it's pretty gross. I normally only shower every other day and that seems to be enough. However, when I do that now, by the time of the second day I feel so gross! Most of the oil seems to be coming from my face. This seems to have been a problem starting maybe just a few weeks ago.
WTH: There has been a strange pattern going lately with "my team". so, on last Sunday we had the no-notification cancellation on the birth class. Then I was supposed to have my actual prenatal appointment with LaNette this past tuesday. I left work early to go the appointment but right before I left I decided to just play on facebook for min (which I normally wouldn't do) and happen to notice that LaNette posted that she was on here way to a birth about an hour before. I decided to text her...well, of course our appointment was cancelled and she forgot to tell me. I didn't receive this "noticed" until I was only about 5 min from her house. I guess at least I found out before I rang the bell! Well, the next day we reschedule the appointment for this friday (yesterday) for 8:00am. I set my alarm early so I can get there ontime. when I wokeup I had a text waiting for me that she was at another birth and we need to reschedule again. Well, we are supposed to meet tomorrow afternoon - so we'll see if that happens.
Along the same lines, we had our first meeting with our doula on thursday. We headed out to get to our appointment and after we were on the road for maybe 5-10 min, we get a text that she would like to push the meeting back by 30min. Ok fine, we turned around...took Mr T for a walk and headed out again. We get to her office and she isn't there...she calls me just after 7 and goes "i'm here" and I reply back with "i'm here too". Well, we were waiting at her office and she was waiting at our house. Eventually she made it to her office and we started the appointment almost an hour after our original appointment.
And that segway into the good part of the week
The meeting with our doula went really well. I really didn't know what to expect so I was pretty surprised (and tired!!) that the meeting lasted about 3 hours - so until 11:30pm. So, first good thing. We still really like her - we all got a long well and were kind of chatty so that's a good sign. The second thing, the appointment ended up being a crash bradley course in the three stages of labor. Most of it I've sort of read before, but it's always good to hear it again.
Final good thing this week - I had a surprise baby shower at work from my team :) It was only an hour long, so it went pretty fast but it was cute. They decorated at meeting room and even had a few games! I was super surprised too that they had a gift for us - the swing! So, generous. The funny thing is that we ended up buying the swing maybe a week ago or so, but I didn't say anything. So, tomorrow we are going to return the one I bought (since it's still in the box).
Oh, and this weekend we are trying to finish up the baby stuff- and are getting pretty darn close. the baby's room is done and his clothes are in the dresser. Also, as I type Dan is installing the car seat and putting the swing together :) )
August 26, 2013
34 weeks
Over the weekend I went to a Sacred Pregnancy meeting. I wasn't sure what it was, but a friend of mine's friend is a Sacred Pregnancy instructor (the 1st one in the state) and held an initial free event to give everyone a sample of what it's all about. I found out about all of this through a facebook invite.
I was extremely hesitant to go because honestly it seemed it little too hippie for me. I believe in all of that stuff but it's a little on the deep end for me and I'm still in the shallows. I was also hesitant to go b/c I was worried it would be a big crying fest. I've been emotional lately and really don't want to start the waterworks.
Well, I went to the event and it was pretty good. There were general introductions and then a craft. All of which was ok. I felt really out of place b/c everyone there was in that industry of healing and birth and I had to introduce myself as an office worker. However, everyone was very nice and welcoming.
We had to make the crafts for each other (we drew names). The lady that drew my name latched onto my introduction when I said, "I'm just a technical writer". She went on this thing on how that either meant I don't love what I do or that I don't love myself and that what I do matters. I thought that was pretty bold for just meeting me a few minutes ago. I ended up drawing the name of the woman that hosted the event - so my project was pretty easy. I just made something to thank her for bringing us together and to congratulate her on her new journey.
The last activity was the hardest because we sat in a circle and gave our intentions to the salt bowl. That's when all of the crying started (I held back).
Overall, the event was pretty relaxing which I needed. It was a lot for me to handle, but it would be good for me to do it in smaller doses. However, I felt bad after the event b/c I didn't give it my all. I held back a lot and tried to confine my emotions. I was worried that I brought bad energy to the circle.
The next day the woman who hosted the event sent me message and said, "What a blessing your presence was in the circle!". It made me feel better for a little bit that I didn't ruin her event, but at the same time I wonder if she was just saying something nice.
Here's a link to pictures from the event: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.632238790143866.1073741830.602869873080758&type=1
I was extremely hesitant to go because honestly it seemed it little too hippie for me. I believe in all of that stuff but it's a little on the deep end for me and I'm still in the shallows. I was also hesitant to go b/c I was worried it would be a big crying fest. I've been emotional lately and really don't want to start the waterworks.
Well, I went to the event and it was pretty good. There were general introductions and then a craft. All of which was ok. I felt really out of place b/c everyone there was in that industry of healing and birth and I had to introduce myself as an office worker. However, everyone was very nice and welcoming.
We had to make the crafts for each other (we drew names). The lady that drew my name latched onto my introduction when I said, "I'm just a technical writer". She went on this thing on how that either meant I don't love what I do or that I don't love myself and that what I do matters. I thought that was pretty bold for just meeting me a few minutes ago. I ended up drawing the name of the woman that hosted the event - so my project was pretty easy. I just made something to thank her for bringing us together and to congratulate her on her new journey.
The last activity was the hardest because we sat in a circle and gave our intentions to the salt bowl. That's when all of the crying started (I held back).
Overall, the event was pretty relaxing which I needed. It was a lot for me to handle, but it would be good for me to do it in smaller doses. However, I felt bad after the event b/c I didn't give it my all. I held back a lot and tried to confine my emotions. I was worried that I brought bad energy to the circle.
The next day the woman who hosted the event sent me message and said, "What a blessing your presence was in the circle!". It made me feel better for a little bit that I didn't ruin her event, but at the same time I wonder if she was just saying something nice.
Here's a link to pictures from the event: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.632238790143866.1073741830.602869873080758&type=1
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