34 weeks

Over the weekend I went to a Sacred Pregnancy meeting. I wasn't sure what it was, but a friend of mine's friend is a Sacred Pregnancy instructor (the 1st one in the state) and held an initial free event to give everyone a sample of what it's all about. I found out about all of this through a facebook invite.

I was extremely hesitant to go because honestly it seemed it little too hippie for me. I believe in all of that stuff but it's a little on the deep end for me and I'm still in the shallows. I was also hesitant to go b/c I was worried it would be a big crying fest. I've been emotional lately and really don't want to start the waterworks.

Well, I went to the event and it was pretty good. There were general introductions and then a craft. All of which was ok. I felt really out of place b/c everyone there was in that industry of healing and birth and I had to introduce myself as an office worker. However, everyone was very nice and welcoming.

We had to make the crafts for each other (we drew names). The lady that drew my name latched onto my introduction when I said, "I'm just a technical writer". She went on this thing on how that either meant I don't love what I do or that I don't love myself and that what I do matters. I thought that was pretty bold for just meeting me a few minutes ago. I ended up drawing the name of the woman that hosted the event - so my project was pretty easy. I just made something to thank her for bringing us together and to congratulate her on her new journey.

The last activity was the hardest because we sat in a circle and gave our intentions to the salt bowl. That's when all of the crying started (I held back).

Overall, the event was pretty relaxing which I needed. It was a lot for me to handle, but it would be good for me to do it in smaller doses. However, I felt bad after the event b/c I didn't give it my all. I held back a lot and tried to confine my emotions. I was worried that I brought bad energy to the circle.

The next day the woman who hosted the event sent me message and said, "What a blessing your presence was in the circle!". It made me feel better for a little bit that I didn't ruin her event, but at the same time I wonder if she was just saying something nice.

Here's a link to pictures from the event: https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.632238790143866.1073741830.602869873080758&type=1