Hair Loss

I thought it wasn't going to come! The hair loss has started this week. It's not too bad right now though. More than normal, but nothing scary.

I love lamp

Sean not only seems to love looking at lights and Tv's it seems to calm him down. Lately, when he seems inconsolable, dan takes him around the house and does a lamp tour - shows him all the lamps (on) in the house, starting with the one in his room. It calms him right down!

This

http://www.huffingtonpost.com/melissa-sher/sht-every-new-parent-should-know_b_4475457.html?ref=topbar

My favorite: Do you love your baby? Are you doing the best you can? Has anyone contacted the authorities? If you can answer "yes," "yes" and "no" then pat yourself on the back because it's going well so far!

It's Back

Maybe it was just a hard day, but the loneliness is back. I've been feeling it for a the last week or so, but last night it was really bad. Logically, I'm not alone, but I can't shake the feeling. I've lost who I was.

When I see Sean, I smile, but I don't always feel something. Is this taking longer than normal?

Let it be known!

At 11.5 weeks, Sean started teething. I'm not mentally ready for this, but hopefully everyone gets through it pain free ;)

Starting to come around

I'm finally starting to feel some love. Within in the last week or so was the first time I told him I loved him.
I think it's becoming easier as he develops..becomes more of a person. I can start to see him develop skills now.

i feel lucky to have him in my life..and not just him as a baby, but Sean, specifically. I don't think i would be able to imagine a better son.

Dear Future Self

Things to consider if you decide you're ready for #2:

• The first two weeks with an infant are nearly hell. It does get better after that, but it's still not easy...far from it.
• Being pregnant sucks, it's a long lonely year, and at this point you have no idea how you can physically handle a toddler while being pregnant.
• Birth, that was the easy part - but it might not go as smoothly the second time.
• Little babies are cute, but only when they are quite and you are rested.
• Your baby is 5 weeks old and though you have a motherly instinct to care for him, you don't feel an overwhelming love or like a mom. Hopefully by the time you read this again, that will have changed.
• If you do get pregnant, be sure to have more fun on maternity leave.